I hate school. Well I don't hate hate it, I am a teacher, but it feels to stressful for me to handle. My anxiety becomes intense at times and I allow myself to say terrible things. I am extremely aware of how I feel and I constantly complain . I have an amazing family that loves me more than I could ever explain. I recently married the love of my life. I constantly worry that I am not good enough in all aspects of my life. I am beautiful and know it, but I mentally abuse myself about my physical appearance. I am ashamed that I don't push myself harder in everything I do. I love my life but I act hateful toward far too many aspects. I know I am blessed with more in life than I could ever fully understand. I love my job, but I hate the politics. I wish people understood my desire to be the best teacher in my field of study. I hate being forced to study things that don't pertain to what I teach but I would gladly take classes that are related to what I teach. My mind won't focus on one thought. I feel as if there is a constant stream of thoughts, ideas and questions in my head. Sometimes I can't fall asleep because my brain won't turn off.